Friday, September 2, 2005

Dark Clouds

We survived the wrath of Katrina in the Florida Panhandle but our neighbors in Alabama, Louisiana and Mississippi did not. I am thankful that we were spared but my heart breaks for all those who lost everything they got. I stopped watching the news and reading the newspaper because I can't contain my emotions. I wish I did not set eyes on those Atlantis-like cities and those people with sheer desperation in their eyes. I am so distraught, it seems like everything and anything sets my tears to fall. I wrote a check to American Red Cross and volunteered my services as a Case Manager to assists those who found refuge in our city. I wish I could do more. Please help if you can. 

Another thing that complicates my present emotional state is that two of my favorite people decided to part ways. I wish they tried to work it out or will try to work it out. I doubt they will but I can still wish, right? To both of them, I would like to say: I love you both. I understand that sometimes, relationships do not work out right. I hope as time passes, you will both heal and find friendship viable because you are both wonderful and good for each other.  

I would like to thank those who sent their prayers and good vibes while we were waiting for Katrina to hit or miss us here on the Florida-Alabama border. We have minor damages and inconveniences but they pale in comparison to those suffered by the neighboring states. Please pray and send those vibes to the people of the three states that were devastated by the hurricane.  

I do not mean to depress everyone. I just want to get this out of my system by writing it down. I find writing down my thoughts to be therapeutic. This is my mental health therapy.   

17 comments:

derasta said...

I made my donation this morning...the saddness I feel is indescribable

ally123130585918 said...




If vibes can help you can have everyone I possess and a few more for your dear friends.......May they remain friends..Ally

jeanno43 said...

I have cried hard watching on the news the last few days and I am praying so hard. Sorry about your friends.

klconard1 said...

I am right there with you dear.  Seeing the destruction of property has been horrible, but seeing the human sufferings of our brothers and sisters afterwards has been a thousand times worse.  Knowing that some of the wicked are preying upon those who are suffering is intolerable.
The pain of friendship parting ways is painful too.  I myself am suffering the loss of two close friendships right now ---- one is a longtime online friendship with someone I now no longer believe is the person they represented themselves to be -- and another -- far more painful --- was a dear friend here for over twelve years.  I have done what I could in both of these relationships, but the end results are ---  that we are parting ways.
That is such a simple description for actions that bring so much hurt.  I have been living with these two trials happening at the same time for about three months now and I am moving into acceptance ---- that one friend repeatedly lied to me --- and that another one didn't value our friendship enough to forgive and rebuild our friendship.
God is still the God of the Universe.  I know He cares about the terrible sufferings in the hurricane's wake and He cares about friends who part ways.  He is able to comfort, strengthen and heal our hearts.  He will be our hope.  I am praying for those dear folks who are victims of the hurricane and I am praying for you and your friends as well, dear.
loving you
karyl

jtuwliens said...

The heartache I feel is indescribable.
Judith
http://journals.aol.com/jtuwliens/MirrorMirrorontheWall

aiibrat said...

i am thankful that you and your family are okay.  i totally understand about not watching the news.  i know it hurts me to see so many in dire need.

sdoscher458 said...

I know it is so hard...you look and say "There but for the grace of God go I" Saying a prayer for those in harm's way...wish the government could get its act together quicker to help them...be safe...Sandi

ryanagi said...

I'm doing the same. I can't watch the news...

belfastcowboy75 said...

You may be feeling fragile, but you are acting with great courage and stength. thank you, Dee.

sazzylilsmartazz said...

I'm in the state of Delaware and we were not affected by Katrina, but the news is so very devastating. The aura of shock and horror permeats the air. However, everyone here is demonstrating loving kindness in one form or another.

I'm so happy that Florida didn't get pummeled again. You have had your share of nightmares and you are wise to write down your feelings. Peace.
Dianna

hope5555 said...

It is all so awful and heartbreaking. I'm with you.

tendernoggle said...

I know how you feel...my emotions are raw also and am scared if I ever start crying I will not stop...these people are so pitiful...and in my own opinion, the government did not step in soon enough with our troops....they need someone to organize the rescue efforts better than what they have been doing...
love ya,
Carlene

queeniemart said...

What has happened with Katrina is so horrible that you can hardly believe it is in the US.   Too much to comprehend at times. I am sorry about your friends. Take care of yourself!!!
Hugs, lisa jo

flossiepumpkin said...

im sure you read my journal - berts world.. i also have deep feelings for the folks in n.o. and mississippi.  i am in so. florida. just where katrina hit land, in broward county. glad all is well with you.   roberta....berts world

gabreaelinfo said...

We know several folks down in Louisiana and Mississippi. Such a sad situation. We have gave to, two organizations and are looking at a third. I just hope it gets to them soon.

Take Care,

Gabreael

ccancu said...

You are right.  The devastation is getting really hard to see . . .  you just want to hug them . . .   it is hard to imagine losing everything . . .   down to your underwear and your very favorite photo of your children.

my78novata said...

glad yoru asafe and sound girl. giving of your time is a true gift of hte heart.