Saturday, April 23, 2005

Senseless Blabbing

Out of life's school of war: What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.
Friedrich Nietzsche, The Twilight of the Idols
I have been doing bare bones journaling in the past few weeks because I was real busy. As I related to you about a month ago, a lot of  life changing events happened to me and my family. No need to be alarmed. They are positive changes. I got a new job and I gave my present job a thirty day notice so I was so busy trying to tie ends before I hand my job to the person who will replace me. I am flying to Virginia to train for my new job and will be there for two weeks. I have never left my children for an extended period of time so I am really scared.  Then we put our home in the market and it sold so quick my head was on a spin. We underestimated the real estate market in our city. We thought it will take a while to sell it so we decided to put it on the market thinking that it will sell around the time our new one is built. So I was dialing like crazy during my lunch breaks to line up movers and a place to stay. To top it all off, of all the times these changes could be happening,  they happened while hubby is on an extended business trip in Germany!  No, this is not a pity party. Since this is my journal, I could whine a bit, can't  I?  

I went to Poetry.Com and tried my hand on their Haiku section. I was intrigued by the pic so I wrote a haiku. Hope you enjoy it.



gnarled, exposed and dry
waiting for the forest fire
to end misery


Thursday, April 21, 2005

Happy 19th Birthday, J!!!!

           Happy Birthday to my not-so-little girl!



 Thank You


Have I thanked you lately

     For coming to my life?

For providing me

    With good memories

And lots of things

     To be proud about?


Have I told you lately?

     How much you mean to me?

That my love for you

     Will never fade?

For it is  unconditional

      In the purest sense   

 And it will always be there

     No matter what?


If I have not thanked

     And told you lately

How much I love you

     Hope this poem

Showed you how I feel

     Now and always 


In the tradition of an AOL Journal addict, I am giving my lovely daughter a shout out for her birthday. LOL.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Ode to Motherhood



A mother is not a person to lean on but a person to make leaning unnecessary.

                                                         Dorothy C. Fisher


 My Little Girl

 As I watch you grow into a young woman

 My heart is full of pride and fear

 I find it hard to let go

 Because I want you frozen in time

 As my smart, loving, and happy little girl

 I want to protect you always

 From life's blows and miseries

 But it is inevitable for you to grow

 Wanting to explore the world

 To gather life experiences

  I understand your yearning for independence

 Yet I am afraid to let go

 Please be patient with me

 For in my heart

 You will forever be my little girl   

Monday, April 11, 2005

Poetry by Dee

At times, I dabble in poetry. I did not want to post any of it at first because I am my worst critic. I always read my poetry and deem it too lame to share. I gathered some courage today to post one that I've grown to love.     

There exist only three beings worthy of respect: the priest, the soldier, the poet.
To know, to kill, to create. 
Charles Baudelaire, Mon Coeur Mis a Nu, XXII




                                      My soul is weary

                                        My body is worn down

                                          I keep beating myself

                                            For my past sins


                                       I long to be free

                                                   Without any memory

                                           So I can stop

                                             Living in fantasy

Thursday, April 7, 2005

Blogging Addiction



You Know You're Addicted to  AOL Journal When...


If you can't access the site, you have a minor freak out - and a major case of hitting reload.

You found yourself composing journal entries during dates, movies, even at work (during breaks, of course)!

When you're out, you suddenly thinkof a witty reply to a comment somebody made to you... several days ago.

You've downloaded AOL Bot program which has only the purpose of making entries easier to write without going on the site manually.

You consider it a great offense if someone deletes your Journal off their Favorite Site  list.

The first thing you do every day when you go online is check your Journal - even before checking your email.
When your friends ask what's new, you get mad at them because you already wrote it in your J and they didn't check it yet.

You have put more time into J than all your housework.

You have more friends on J land than in real life.

You can't seem to call your friends by their real names - only J names will do.
You have posted about a party or get together on your J... and random strangers showed up.

You've written a private  entry about one of your J friends. (Extra points if they eventually found out about it)

You have written posts to notify people you're going to sleep.

You talk about your J friends to your real life friends all the time... like they're a part of your group.

You've created a J community, and people actually post in it.

You've been recognized in real life by a fellow J'er.

You have befriended someone because of their  Journal  pictures.

You have "pity friends" on your list, who you would defriend if you could.
Instead of doing housework,  you post pictures of it  on your Journal.

Your pets all have their own AOL Journals.
You've stopped being friends with someone in real life because of something they've said on J.
You have consoled yourself after a horrible day thinking "At least this will make a great J post"

You're jealous of people who have more friends and / or comments than you.

You have written a really great, solid post - only to be disappointed by the lack of good comments.

You're guilty of commenting excessively to get more traffic to your journal.

You've deleted a post a few minutes (or hours) after you've written it, because it seemed lame in retrospect.

You give shout outs to all your J friends on their birthdays.

You have an additional, secret journal that hardly anyone knows about.

 You have gotten mean anonymous comments (bonus points for figuring out who it was via their IP)

You've been reported (or reported someone) to  AOL J Abuse.

You've been featured on  AOL J’s   Editor Picks.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are J addicts.

I am an AOL J addict. I want to start a support group. I have been suffering from major blogging withdrawals since I started working. I was tempted several times to get online and check out J Land while I am at work. When I get off work, I walk in my house and say "HI" to my kids and then I log on. I usually have about 40 or more update alerts and I get so excited. We've been eating a lot of pizzas and take outs lately. I need help... 

Saturday, April 2, 2005

When It Rains, It Pours!

If there comes a little thaw, Still the air is chill and raw, Here and there a patch of snow, Dirtier than the ground below, Dribbles down a marshy flood; Ankle-deep you stick in mud. In the meadows while you sing, "This is Spring."
Christopher Pearce Cranch, A Spring Growl

It rained and rained for two days in my little city in Florida. The result was flooding. Thank God my street and my home was not flooded. I feel sorry for those who have to be evacuated because of the rising water and for those who need to be rescued from their stranded and stalled cars.

Where is the sunshine? Am I still in Sunshine State?  I am getting quite riled up about all the natural disasters we have been having for the past few months. There was Hurricane Ivan about six months ago, the hail a few days ago, and now the severe thunderstorm that poured so much water in my city that half of its population are  now living in temporary waterfront properties.

Just have to get that out of my system...

On the brighter side. My family had been blessed with a lot of  positive things these past few days. Hubby was offered a promotion by his company. The entity I want to work for notified me that they are sending me for 2 weeks training in Virginia. And last but not the least, our home is under contract after just a week in the market!!!

I have to leave my present job but I am moving to a better one. I am sad that I have to leave a job that I thoroughly enjoy and the friends I made there but I am happy too because I got my dream job.

We are going to live in an apartment until our new house is built. I already signed a short term lease for a small but comfortable apartment unit.

Yes, when it rains, it pours!  There was the negative pouring of literal rain resulting in floods in my little hometown. Then there was the positive pouring of blessings that my family have received in guise of promotion, new job and home sale.